New Friends

While I’m contemplating the elusive finish to my previous post, I wanted to note that I have made two new acquaintances I hope will become good friends.  Interestingly, Brian is much like Justin and I in political persuasion, aptitude, involvement, etc.  Here is an article he wrote for World Magazine.  I’m proud to know a person who can be so morally upright……especially in a world that seems to have been taken hold of by her Royalty Nancy Pelosi (most recent brouhaha being her assanine request for military jets).  Please read this:

http://www.worldmag.com/articles/14916

Interesting food for thought.  Tiller is to abortion like Kivorkian was to Euthanasia.  Funny that they both come from the same city….as did the BTK.  I wonder if it’s the water or that perhaps the south side of that city, perhaps the whole city in general is just in a bad way.  And….I find it sad that people can really take greed, selfish pride, haughty wherewithall and use it to destroy someone else’s life.  That, my friends, is sick.  I’ll have to share an in-depth analysis of a book that makes one think logically, progressively, and conservatively about moral values, truth, prudence, life itself. 

“Reasons To Believe” by Scott Hahn.

I had no intent of being a downer, but do follow this one.  This is certainly one issue I’m passionate about.  Life.  It was given to US by a great sacrifice!

What It Means to Realize You’re No Longer Going Solo

For years I have tried to pacify relationships….say the right thing at the right time, make people happy and give them what they want or at least within means.  And in dating, I just was enough of a person (poor in character, I might add) to give the minimum investment.  The returns on my investments of time, energy, trust, joy, patience, good faith and solidity were equally reciprocal. 

So, I ran from it for a long time.  Now, I’ve hit a funky place in my running.  Physically, very literally and figuratively, but it is something I am completely (choke) okay with.  I had thought for a good solid period of time (until I met Justin) that life was absolutely blase, empty, devoid of true/pure happiness.  We talk economics, finance, banking, stocks, dividends, mergers and acquisitions, grilling, adventure, running, hunting, pups, family, school, literature, love, and most of all, most important to me….about our Faith.  Faith has been a sticky one and by no means do I intend to imply that we are lost or agnostic.  Rather, I expect that Justin will be a strong leader, rise up and take charge as the head of our home….and I will gladly follow.  But we hit a roadblock when it comes to finding the RIGHT church, the RIGHT faith, and we were both raised in excellent Christian homes.  Our goal is to not end up in a lake of fire and now I understand what my parents meant about being “equally yoked”.   Now I get it that my Grandma Vi used to say the family that prayed together stayed together.  She was a smart woman, one whose footsteps I would be honored to follow in! 

We had friends over last night at his house, had a barbeque.  I enjoyed that, and Justin was equally excited.  He’s a great cook, far surpassing my burnt biscuits and bland pancakes, botched salads and never-cooked-right meat.  I adore him and hope that I can express that with enough of my heart and soul to make a difference.  He understands anorexia and how it affected me, and the things I still fight with every day.  And despite that, he loves me.  He has bought me flowers and gave me a Beagle puppy, which just about made me cry I was so happy.  We have gone back and forth, round and round because my own personal shortcomings are the infliction of selfishness and I think that to more fully and capably love others, I have to give up that element of selfishness, relating to the sermon yesterday.  Selfishness is a cross that I’m going to have to just grin and bear, take up and follow in Jesus’ footsteps.  And I for certain don’t want to bring children into this world as a selfish mother.  I want to fully give so that a family can fully grow.  And, I support the idea that a career, happiness and comfort will follow suit.  It doesn’t matter what I drive, where I am, what job I have at the time, etc……..but what matters are those I love.  Compassion.  Those I can live for.  Love.  Those who have less.  Empathy and sacrifice.  Those who have more…..who need love just the same.  Likeness and discipleship.  Those who are desperate and lost.  A hug.  Those who give it all and keep giving.   Help.  Those who fight and are restless.  Patience, Faith.  He, Justin, has all the virtues I want more of.  I also know that you must surround yourself with those whom you want to be most like.  I want all his good traits and wish to add to them fully. 

 

I will have to elaborate later……getting carried away.  That’s a taste of what is on my heart, but I love this guy…..am totally going to have to reconcile being “worth it”!